I've been feeling a little behind these days. I feel as if everyone around me is married with children. I got started off on the right foot a few years ago, but now I have taken such a drastic U-turn I wonder if I'll ever find my way back. Being one of the most impatient people ever, you can imagine how frustrated I've been. Everywhere I look there are couples, and not just couples, but HAPPY couples. I try to look beyond them and realize there must be singles out there, but maybe they have been banned in my area and I just didn't get the memo? Hmmm I'll have to look into that.
Sometimes I get pretty down and think there must be something wrong with me, and yes, I can make a mile-long list of those not-so-cool qualities. But then I think, hey wait a second, she's not perfect, and he's not perfect, and that guy's definitely not perfect! And yet they have the one thing that I am missing most in my life. I've been told before to not look so hard, but I've been doing that for a year and haven't had very good results with that method. I'm ready to meet someone and share my life with them. I'm ready to get back to where I was, but this time there will be one major difference, I want to be with the right guy!
I'm a terrible candidate for being a single gal trying to find her match, and here's my proof:
I'm very shy when I first meet someone, and if I happen to like that person, it's magnified times 10!
I usually hangout with guys a lot more than girls, which is like wearing a sign on my head that screams "don't even think about talking to me, one of these guys is my boyfriend".
I'm 27 which seems like an age so rare in the single world it should be put on an endangered species list.
I'm not into typical girlie things, for example a night out for me includes drinking beer all night, usually keeping up with, if not drinking most guys under the table. I don't sit in a high top chair sipping cosmos, no sir.
I have a very small group of friends here. Over the years my besties move and I stay in the same place. This just limits me further by not having a large social group to mingle in.
So, as you can see I am in a place where I don't want to be at this time in my life. I'm trying my best to be patient, but that tank is running on E, actually it's running on fumes. I should look outside the box and realize that my life is fine without having a significant other, but it sure would be nice to meet somebody great to share it with! I think I'll focus on other things for now, try and continue to improve myself to be a better person.